I feel like Hashimoto’s is taking over my life! For whatever reason, I can’t kick this damn disease. It has got to go, like NOW! I am tired of being fatigued and sore all the time for no reason. I haven’t worked out in three weeks and am still having muscle weakness and overall soreness. My back and neck are so stiff! My shoulders are are always really tense.
That’s just the physical part, the brain fog is intense. There are days where I sometimes wonder if I am developing Alzheimer’s. My short-term memory is getting worse and worse. I am writing everything down on post-its and even writing reminders of post-its on other post-its! The calendar on my iPhone is filled with reminders and alarms to remind me where I’m supposed to be and when.
My hormones are out of control. I am a hormonal hot mess every day! Am I mad? Am I happy? Why am I crying for no reason? Why am I laughing for no reason? Is it hot in here? Where is my blanket? It’s 100+ degrees, why am I freezing? Why does everyone at Wal*Mart irritate me? I am so grateful for my job, because at work I am so busy, I don’t have time to get upset of think about anything other than what I’m doing at the time.
I am still not sleeping well. On Friday night I was up until 3:30 AM and back up at 8:30 AM on Saturday. Once I fall asleep, I struggle to stay asleep. Most days, I feel like I’ve taken drowsy medication. I struggle to focus on one thing at a time. Multi-tasking isn’t even an option anymore and it kills me. I used to thrive at multi-tasking. Now, I can’t even talk on the phone while I am at the store. It’s too overwhelming!
I belong to a couple of Facebook groups for Hashimoto’s and all they talk about is how they have had these same symptoms (and some worse symptoms) for years and they just deal with it. Many people swear that AIP has lessened their symptoms, but it didn’t seem to help mine at all. Maybe I should try it again? My family is so supportive and tries their best to help. They are always asking me how I feel and I feel like a whiny baby when I tell them I feel like crap, so I just say I feel fine. How I really feel is crazy and a little pissed off.
I go back to my endocrinologist in November and am holding out hope that he has found something new that can help (or at least tell me that these new meds are working). In the mean time, I will continue to do yoga and stay as stress free as possible. Oh yea, and I’ll try to stay positive. I know this could be so much worse. I am not dying. This is not cancer. I need to suck it up!